I am still waiting for my stress reliever. need it soon

So I have asked one of my Mentors for a stress reviler spanking. It has taken a bit to work out timing but i am getting it this week. A stress reviler to me is a really really  hard spanking that brings me to tears. I have a very hard time crying and a while ago one of my Mentors discovered that i stop myself from crying by touching my eyes. so anytime i am getting a spanking now i have to keep my hands away from my face, I have recived extra swats for doing it. durring this spanking though my hands will be tied away from my face which should help me to beable to let go and cry. As the title says I am nervously excited about this spanking. Nervous because theses are going to be punishment level (or close to) swats and those really hurt. Excited because i have been really really stressed recently and i am looking forward to geting rid of it or at least most. 

I will post after and try and remember to get pictures.